06-15-2019, 12:25 AM
Thanks Mirah. It is not Father's Day here but I really do appreciate the sentiment.
My daughter turned 19 the other day. She has grown into a lady far better than I deserve. I marvel at her. She is rarely home. She works nights and stays over her friends or boyfriend's house. I missed her terribly. When she first came in to my complete custody she was a broken little doll and has become a confident, self-determined, forthright, self-driven young lady with a lot of agency and we are very close. I am so very proud of her.
My son is not close to me. That was the necessary trade off to look after my little girl. He was closer with Mother and whether he saw my fighting for my daughter as a betrayal or not himself, or whether his mother passed her thoughts on this to him, I do not know. He is an Autistic boy and both rigid and impressionable, which was never a great combination when it came to critical thought. He apparently is happy and in fact dating (He is a very handsome boy and his innocent childlike nature can be very endearing) a lady many years older than him. His is living semi-independently in my ex-wife's second home. He is working. I get snippets here and there which I hang onto. His "stuff' I had accumulated over the years I really need to bring myself to throw out. I love him of course and wish him the very best and hope in time he can take some real stock of whatever bullshit he was told and reach out. I tell myself year after year, one day but I am now convinced that is wishful thinking and there is nothing critical or constructive in fairytales.
I appreciate the sentiments though and it will be remembered.
My daughter turned 19 the other day. She has grown into a lady far better than I deserve. I marvel at her. She is rarely home. She works nights and stays over her friends or boyfriend's house. I missed her terribly. When she first came in to my complete custody she was a broken little doll and has become a confident, self-determined, forthright, self-driven young lady with a lot of agency and we are very close. I am so very proud of her.
My son is not close to me. That was the necessary trade off to look after my little girl. He was closer with Mother and whether he saw my fighting for my daughter as a betrayal or not himself, or whether his mother passed her thoughts on this to him, I do not know. He is an Autistic boy and both rigid and impressionable, which was never a great combination when it came to critical thought. He apparently is happy and in fact dating (He is a very handsome boy and his innocent childlike nature can be very endearing) a lady many years older than him. His is living semi-independently in my ex-wife's second home. He is working. I get snippets here and there which I hang onto. His "stuff' I had accumulated over the years I really need to bring myself to throw out. I love him of course and wish him the very best and hope in time he can take some real stock of whatever bullshit he was told and reach out. I tell myself year after year, one day but I am now convinced that is wishful thinking and there is nothing critical or constructive in fairytales.
I appreciate the sentiments though and it will be remembered.