This place needs some testosterone

[Clang McFly]

Clang, you're a very social guy, you're always doing something. You have a better social life than I do, so what's the problem? Are you shy? Do you approach women you'd like to know better?

Yes, shy, nervous and awkward around women that's me. I was talking to this woman a few days ago on the bus home from work and she's talking about stuff like the weather and how she only started work 2 weeks ago, and her son who was playing baseball that rainy afternoon and I found my self struggling to keep up my end of the conversation. I was so nervous I never introduced myself or found out her name.

Approach women I'd like to know better? No. I sit and stare at them and seem to instead build up an unrealistic fantasy of them in my mind so much so that when/if they talk to me I get nervous talking to them and very disappointed when they just want to be friends.

I don't know...maybe its a combination of fear of rejection in general and a fear that no woman would be able to accept my crossdressing and I'd have to choose between my love for her and my love of lady clothes.