I got your vitamin D.

(01-15-2022, 11:32 PM)sally Wrote: Benes, you jackass.

what the fuck does a Czech politician have to do with you faking orgasms?

Actually I just hate the fucker with every fiber of my being, why the hell would I want to have sex with him? I can't stand it.

Leave and go buy a little farmette so I can send J a horse.

(01-16-2022, 07:47 PM)sally Wrote: Actually I just hate the fucker with every fiber of my being, why the hell would I want to have sex with him? I can't stand it.

the truth finally, you are in a loveless marriage and don't know what to do. I didn't believe that asexual bull at all. you are not the first to find yourself in this predicament, and you will hardly be the last. find someone who fills you with passion and electricity and enjoy yourself. life is far too short for anything less. just keep your eyes open and your heart vulnerable; be ready to try new things. set goals and standards and don't compromise them. most of all, you set the rules; live life on your terms and fuck what society, family or friends think.

the line forms to my left for the rest of you horn dogs. I promised her I suck her clit until her faced caved in.

I can't escape it right now because I'm 46 years old and have a 10 year old and all of our assets are mutual. I'm fucking miserable, but with that said I really don't have any desire for men. Seriously.

Pillow fight!

It would give me great pleasure to smash a pillow tightly over his face.

I've never met a person in my life that I've felt such disdain for. Unfortunately it's the father of my kids.

(01-16-2022, 10:31 PM)sally Wrote: I've never met a person in my life that I've felt such disdain for. Unfortunately it's the father of my kids.

Probably because you haven't lived with anyone else that long. Please do something constructive about this before it blows up in your face.

I've lived with him 30 years. I hate him to the core of my very being. I dont wish anything bad on him or anything, he's a good dad. Everything about him just gets on my goddamn nerves, I try to keep myself from feeling that way, but it doesn't work. He makes me physically sick.

(01-16-2022, 08:33 PM)sally Wrote: I can't escape it right now because I'm 46 years old and have a 10 year old and all of our assets are mutual. I'm fucking miserable, but with that said I really don't have any desire for men. Seriously.

I'm throwing the bullshit flag; you have no clue what you can do until you research the problem, look at all the options and make an adult decision. You need professional advice (financial and legal); I would also say spiritual advice, but you would take that wrong. So, find an attorney you trust, a CPA you trust and start asking questions. Then find an Indian shaman with snake oil and rattles and listen to him chant to his dead ancestors till you find something that feeds your soul. I don't give a shit if it's bowling, finger painting, making pornos with midgets or playing the William Tell Overture on your sweaty arm pit while streaking on the beach in Rio. Sex should be the last thing on your to do list. Remember, you make the rules. It is your happiness to define; no one else can make you happy.  Deciding we've made a mistake and looking at other options is every person's right.

Just keep in mind my gracious offer when you are ready   

(01-16-2022, 10:42 PM)sally Wrote: I've lived with him 30 years. I hate him to the core of my very being. I dont wish anything bad on him or anything, he's a good dad. Everything about him just gets on my goddamn nerves, I try to keep myself from feeling that way, but it doesn't work. He makes me physically sick.

Seriously Sally, you are not the 1^st person this has happened to; there are solutions if you look. And help will be available when you ask.

30 fucking years Pappy and I'm only 46! That's a long fucking time to be with someone and build a life together which is mostly for your three kids and then just get up and walk away. Way easier said than done.

(01-16-2022, 10:42 PM)sally Wrote: I've lived with him 30 years. I hate him to the core of my very being. I dont wish anything bad on him or anything, he's a good dad. Everything about him just gets on my goddamn nerves, I try to keep myself from feeling that way, but it doesn't work. He makes me physically sick.

I'm concerned because you sound like you're at the end of your tether. Have you tried doing something that gets you out of the house, like yoga? Doing something that gives you some satisfaction on a regular basis would make a difference.

(01-16-2022, 11:07 PM)sally Wrote: 30 fucking years Pappy and I'm only 46! That's a long fucking time to be with someone and build a life together which is mostly for your three kids and then just get up and walk away. Way easier said than done.

It might have more to do with how you feel about yourself. Do some things that make you feel good about yourself, and you might feel better in your relationship.

30 fucking years. Where did the time go? I agree, I should change up some shit.

(01-16-2022, 11:07 PM)sally Wrote: 30 fucking years Pappy and I'm only 46! That's a long fucking time to be with someone and build a life together which is mostly for your three kids and then just get up and walk away. Way easier said than done.

There are solutions, counseling, marriage counseling, open relationship, trial separation long before divorce. You built a life together, that took time. It will take time to separate those lives as well. Just keep your eyes open, your head straight and your mind in focus.

There are solutions, ask questions and look at your options.

Have you even talked to him about your feelings? If he is half a man, he will meet you in the middle and change the things you abhor.

(01-16-2022, 11:20 PM)sally Wrote: 30 fucking years. Where did the time go? I agree, I should change up some shit.

Is this a midlife crisis? Menopause? Depression? Sally, take it from an old man, life is about change. You have changed, he has changed, and the communication that once flowed freely sometime gets taken for granted. Talk to him, see what he says, maybe you two need a hobby together. Just the two of you.

She's happy being unhappy, chill.