How can anyone do it alone?

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I'm alone a lot and I don't mind it at all. It might bother me if I didn't have a lot of other interests.

Did you give Cowboy the boot while I wasn't looking?

There's a lot of uncertainty in my marriage right now. My daughter, with all of $1400 to her name, up and left on Monday (the day between Mother's Day and my birthday). A few months ago, it would have been a "run away" but she's 18. She's staying at a shitty hotel. We're going to let her run out of money and then she has some choices: couch surf with the few friends she has, stay with a relative, come home (I actually don't want that to happen...she's been the source of a lot of chaos and toxicity in the house for a long time) or we'll rent her a granny type unit for her somewhere near her school. If she does her "job", and goes to school everyday, she can graduate high school in about 3 months. After that...I dunno. She's still a sick young woman and she couldn't function in a regular, full time job or college. Even though she'll graduate with a 4.0, she's been in a very forgiving, expensive, work at your own pace, drive your parents crazy, start school at 1:30pm type of school for the last 4 to 5 years. She has no clue about regular schools or jobs. I'd like her to go somewhere really structured that would teach her about real world. An assisted living facility that has requirements that need to be met etc. Or the military (I've never thought of that for her but wow, she'd be a completely different person within 6 months if she did that).

Wait, this is about being alone. For awhile I was sure I was going to move out because my husband and daughter were both being pretty damn hateful to me (my husband is just cold). If our daughter stays gone and moves on with her life, I don't know if my husband and I could have a better relationship. The grass is greener...in some ways, a place to myself and solitude sound heavenly right now. But I have a few lady friends my age who live alone and dislike the "isolation". I could see feeling that way after a few months. Dating? I can't imagine going through dozens of shitty dates looking for "Mr. Right". I think any guy I would like is probably married because he's a great guy and somebody already snatched him up and treats him well because they know they've got an awesome husband.

I think I'll try to improve things with my husband but a year of couple's therapy really hasn't done much so it's going to be a challenge.