10-31-2020, 09:44 PM
(10-31-2020, 12:15 AM)MirahM Wrote: I have been struggling this month. It is the anniversary of the death of someone who took her own life last year. I couldn't find a thread I had made about it, so I will just put it here.
I am fine, I do not want to take my life. I like life. I like living, finding new adventures, getting in to trouble and figuring life out. But even then I have my ups and downs, but I feel I have enough support I don't want to end it.
It is hard when someone in the community does this and people are left wondering why. I kept thinking about her this week. I thought, "Today is the last day she was alive last year" and then, "Today she decided she would kill herself" I cannot fathom how much time she thought about it.
She was one of the happiest people that we all knew. This took everyone by surprise.
I lived with her parents for 6 months when I came down from the mountain. They are devastated. But getting through it.
Anyway. TLDR dont' worry about it.
<3 Luv
I've thought about MirahM's post, and I get her. I know a few people that have died by their own hand. I have tried to get it but can never see it. Back in medieval times people would pay off the executioner to slip poison to the ones that were caught up in the death purges, that was considered respectful. Live burning"s and disembowelment's were common and human life was not considered important in the general scheme of things. I would have hated to live in those times.
Today is different, I feel that people commit suicide not because of others but because they have lost any optimistic feelings. It happens, nothing anyone can do about that. Especially if they never showed a clue................They never found the good, only the bad. It happens.
I'm deeply sorry for that MirahM...............and I have no clue why this is in italics.
He ain't heavy, he's my brother.