RIZZ IS WORD OF THE YEAR

[cannongal]

Not sure what to say, CG. Feel your feelings and grieve for as long as you need to.

Wish you well.

Thanks,  but 
I did not talk about her much, because I had a rough childhood.
I did not talk about her much, because I didn't understand mental illness very well.
I did not talk about her very much,  because every time I went to see her,  she reminded me that I really didn't want to see her. 
My mother passed away ,  and I really don't know how to feel about it.
She was bipolar and manic depressive.  She also self medicated, a lot.
She was creative and crafty, she used to make the most beautiful Christmas wreaths,  out of towle and scrap fabric.  I think I get my craftiness from her. 
At times, she was an awesome cook, who had no problem spending hours in the kitchen,  making perogi just for me.
She got me into an overnight summer camp, which was an awesome experience. 
She had no problem with all the animals that I brought home, even helping me research how to take care of them.
She always opened her door for me,  no matter how much we fought in the previous visit.
I wish I could say that the good memories outweigh the bad, but they don't.  My last memory of her, is when she put a chair through the back window of my van.
I love her, because she's my mom, but I hated her because of her actions.
Fly high, mom, I hope you are finally at peace.?