I cannot believe...

[Carsman]

I wouldnt have my other kids if I didnt have those abortions and all three times there was no heart beat and no ultrasound detection so I had to have a vaginal ultrasound to spot the tiny speck of life. I definitely believe that life starts at conception so I  have some mixed emotions like I'm going to burn in hell for eternity, but I wouldnt have my three other kids if I didnt abort the zygotes.

That's a much contested statement. Some believe that life starts at babies "first breath of air". As the saying goes, someone "dies when they take their last breath of air". 
So to be considered "living", they have to be breathing air. Many pregnancies end before 
being "born" into the living world. It's a conundrum anyway you look at it.