The psychiatrist is in

[MirahM]

Here is what i did this month.
Right in the beginning of the month I called her mom and then I went and visited her mom.
I started reaching out to people right away and I just dealt with it.
The only thing I wish I would have done different is take time off work, by the time I realized what was going on w/ me emotionally it was too late for the request as someone else had it off.
I can see the building she killed herself in from the drive up window at the bank. I don't think about it too much, but this last week I sure did.
I feel guilty for posting all of this depressing shit here right now.
Anyway, I also posted in other places about mental helath and suicide awareness and prevention. I don't worry about anyone here honestly.

This last year I have been on hyper alert if I thought someone was talking about or thinking about suicide. I kept trying to save the world, prevent one more death, but I had to realize that I am not responsilbe for these people dying. But what I can do is do my best to be there for people etc etc