hypothetical: calling all evil vagina monsters

[Donovan]

Are you happy, Donovan? Do you want to be with her? Can you get past her not being truthful about the secret meeting?

Yes, and I thought so, and no. I enjoy the domestic stuff and looked forward to trying to build a solid life. I love the boy, and this is going on four years together so I am essentially the only stable male role model/dad figure he's had. His own dad, her eldest, is a goddamn flake who can't be bothered to drive across town except every other week for a day or a few hours, and then he just bitches about how unfair his life is. The mom is an ex-stripper borderline retard alcoholic. She shows up every week or so and stares at her phone while he plays nearby. The two of them belong in the thread about planned parenthood.

So this kid is gonna have some lovely issues even without me bolting. But I have no option that involves a positive outcome. He ain't mine.

The honesty is a dealbreaker. When it was one meeting that she volutarily confessed to, that was problematic but isolated. When it was a week of texts she admitted to after I asked point blank, that was a pattern. And her behavior since, where she is doing things like "going to a friend's show" all dressed up without me and refusing to say where...that shit is just childish. We have to be done. But I needed to know I wasn't flying off halfcocked.

It's all cocked or nothing for me.